Yes. At 36, with no social media/website experience, but no shortage of attitude about it, I’ve decided to start a blog.
But Brenda (yes, I’m referring to myself in the third person. If I’m really doing this I might as well go full cringe), hasn’t it been done before?
Yes.
By younger, hotter, tech savvier, graphic design degree holding goddesses?
Yes.
You know people will criticize you and your whole world might come crashing down, right?
Yes.
You see, those voices up there, the ones that say I can't, I shouldn’t, and I don’t deserve have kept me in a constant state of fear as long as I can remember. As a child, those voices kept me attached to my mother’s hip, stopped me from making friends, prevented me from raising my hand, and blinded me to dangerous red flags (I thought they led to a carnival and who doesn’t love carnivals?).
As an adult they kept me in abusive relationships, prevented me from following my dreams, and made boundaries seem like something that only applied to Vera Farmiga and Christopher Plummer (have you seen it? It’s adorable).
So, why now?
Well, to be honest, I got tired. I got tired of the suffering that came with being suffocated for so long. I got tired of the breakdowns, the disappointments, and the oh so familiar feelings of despair that came with not living a purposeful life. I wanted to find my purpose. A purpose at the very least. I’d been hearing whispers of guidance, love, and encouragement for some time. Yet, the fear convinced me the whispers were irrational, impossible, and delusional. Until now.
This blog is a gift to myself. In it you'll find,
The stories of extraordinary women doing beautiful things in their communities.
and
The trials and triumphs of my own intuitive journey towards...
that which whispers yes ✨
Magic & Love Always,
B.